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In the Death of Something Beautiful

by J Smith

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When I had the vision for how I wanted In the Death of Something Beautiful to sound I knew I wanted my brother Dan to play the drums; the groove he can create is unlike any other and it fit the song perfectly. It was recorded on that famous day in Aug 2019 along with 5 other songs by the brilliant Ben Rawlins, and features Donagh Seaver O'Leary. There's a different feel to this song. I recorded a brass section along with some heavy, atmospheric guitars at home which adds to the dark atmosphere of the song.

In the Death of Something Beautiful was a hard song to write. My wife and I had just experienced our first pregnancy loss and it really rocked us. Although we got closer sharing something so tragic, it brought up so much confusion within both of us separately. I felt self conscious of it for quite some time knowing that the rawness of it might be hard to experience for the listener, but when it happened to us, we knew no-one who'd been through it, or at least we thought we didn't. Turns out so many people go through it, so many of my family, even some friends who kept it to themselves, so I hope this lets someone realise that they know someone too, and that they don't have to go through it alone. I'm pleased to say that we are expecting our first child, a rainbow baby as they call it, and everything has been going so smoothly. We feel so blessed.

lyrics

Was told I’d be a father

40 weeks premature

Now I don’t know If I’m escaping

Or a child is being rescued

Cause I’m carrying my demons

And they swore they’d raise her too

Is it wrong to see a blessing

In the death of something beautiful




It’s a burden to know you deserve

All the pain coming to you, the pain coming to you

It’s a circle so it feels good

Makes the pain worth going through




Now no matter what I’m carrying

I just wanna hold my child

Cause I feel like I’ve had my practice

Carrying the weight of the world my short life




It’s a burden to know you deserve

All the pain coming to you, the pain coming to you

It’s a circle so it feels good

Makes the pain worth going through

The pain worth going through

The pain worth going through

The pain worth going through

The pain worth going through

What pains worth going through

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released May 14, 2021
Written, Arranged, Produced, Additional Engineering James Smith
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Drums, Bass, Rhythm Guitar recorded Ben Rawlins

Vocals, Guitar, Synths, Percussion James Smith
Drums Daniel Smith
Bass Donagh Seaver O'Leary
Trumpet Bill Blackmore
Trombone Max Houtris

Mixed Richard Kennedy at Assault and Battery
www.richiekennedymusic.com

Mastered Pete Maher
www.petemaher.com

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J Smith Dublin, Ireland

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Learning piano from the age of 5, music became an essential part of James' life and it only expanded when finding the guitar and other instruments. With music being a medium in which James could process tragedy or moments of elation, it became an integral part of his life.

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